in bed with scorpions

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so far it has been few encounters with these texas creatures, not as poisonous as mexican ones [that kill on the spot]. indoor encounters are always less pleasant, especially few hours before you are ready to take rest at night.

what i recently expiriance is a painfull bite of another kind, when i realized that all my art work from the times of studing art and art conservation has been lost. the story goes 10 yrs back when i was leaving croatia, leaving my entire portfolio in the house of a friend of mine. big format drawings and paintings, small format drawing studies, ink sketches, renaissance reproductions, comics etc. it's a big blow, especialy if you were planing to plug in on your local art scene.
solace one: if circumstances doesn't brake you they may make you stronger if they don't criple you. regardless of what the odds are it is a liberating expiriance after all.
like a real monks that spend wast amounts of time in mandala and zen garden forms, but all gets swept away with few strokes of broom/rake/time.
solace two: words of gita [too many to mention],
and something i red many times, but now could become the intro for a coming graphic novel about lock and load era, not at all religious one:

We must know the present need of human society. And what is that need? Human society is no longer bounded by geographical limits to particular countries or communities. Human society is broader than in the Middle Ages, and the world tendency is toward one state or one human society. The ideals of spiritual communism, according to Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam, are based more or less on the oneness of the entire human society, nay, of the entire energy of living beings. The need is felt by great thinkers to make this a successful ideology. Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam will fill this need in human society. It begins, therefore, with the aphorism of Vedānta philosophy janmādy asya yataḥ [SB 1.1.1] to establish the ideal of a common cause.

Human society, at the present moment, is not in the darkness of oblivion. It has made rapid progress in the field of material comforts, education and economic development throughout the entire world. But there is a pinprick somewhere in the social body at large, and therefore there are large-scale quarrels, even over less important issues. There is need of a clue as to how humanity can become one in peace, friendship and prosperity with a common cause. Śrīmad-Bhāgavatam will fill this need, for it is a cultural presentation for the respiritualization of the entire human society.

there are many placebo attempts that cheapen our most intimate desires to feel genuinely contempt.
this is not one of them.
inside out.